"Right. Except sometimes is kinda turning int a lot of the time. He doesn't spend a lot of time at home, instead he's out... scheming. He's not cheating I... looked into that. And when he does come home, it's business like usual. Like... there's nothing wrong, like I'm expected to be okay with that bullshit and I'm... not. I dunno Ashe, I can't keep this up."
Ashe shifted in her spot, mulling it over. "Did it ever occur to you that... you don't have to keep it up?"
Right, this was the point she usually clammed up, if someone actually ever got this far. The only thing separating now from... any other time Varric tried to breach the subject, was that she wasn't in Kirkwall. For all she loved the city, it had such an oppressive aura. Or maybe she felt like she had to keep face, in order to hold her team together. For all of their time spent together, and while most of them did have a close friend in their immediate cohort, she knew most of them were there because years ago, she requested it. If she did anything to fracture the group, they'd go their separate ways and she'd be alone again. Probably. This was pure speculation but she believed it.