Funny that she was a doctor, because she led a thoroughly unhealthy life. Maybe that was why she so intently wrangled each of her patients - controlling their lives seemed to be a lot easier than controlling her own, she thought.
She was very sick of her absolute bum of boyfriend, yet hoped they would reach an understanding. But they never did, and both knew they never would. At one point she needed to run somewhere warm, somewhere happy, like here - but she end up being by far disenchanted. What could make her feel enchanted? It came to the point where she wondered why she would even bother to wake up in the morning anymore. But she told herself she was a stronger girl, and she always pushed that thought away.
Life was a game, an ex-boyfriend told her, before packing his bags and leaving her and his gambling debts behind, imprisoning her in this hell of a lover's paradise. If you let yourself think those thoughts, you lose.