by ShadowStitches » 05/16/2011 2:08 AM
Yvaine swallowed, before looking at him and nodding slightly. Just now she realized that she never told this story to anyone. On the other hand, she was not that talk active around strangers usually too, so that was that.
"I was in a long lasting relationship, we where together for 4 years. He...he was an incredibly loving person,but he also was...well, you could say obsessive. He was frightingly protective and got jealous very easily. But that never really bothered me, I guess. Until I..." She took in a shuddering breath, forcing back tears.
talking about all that was not as easy as it was supposed to be. "...I fell in love with his best friend. I knew him for quite some time, he was the one who brought me and my ex boyfriend together. Anyway I...fell in love with him. I dont know how and why it just...it just happened, and I couldnt for the life of me stop it." She now really cried, sniffling slightly. "I never, ever cheat on someone before. never. not even for smaller things. Hoverver I began an affair with said friend, and at this time realized just what demons my Ex really had. I tried to help him before, but they always would linger around him. At this time however, they began to consume him." She stopped, obviously trying to sort out words. "I tried to end the affair, but...well I was in love, true, deep love with this other man, and I couldnt. And when my Ex found out about it he...well of course he was mad. But he went completely insane. At first it was understandable, but later he...he did some very nasty things. ou of love, but...he scared me, lets put it that way" She did not mention the time where he locked her in a room to keep her from getting out to Zacky. She did not mention the time that he, at one point, lashed out on her, she did not mention the fact that he attacked Zacky and was about to kill him, if he didnt stop in the last second.She now sobbed, obviously the guilt was too much for her"I tried not to see my...love in this time, get out of his way and spend more time with my ex. but my thoughts always wandered to my love and...
My Ex refused to talk to me or make things better in any way. I know he tried, but he couldnt...I think he could not forgive me. And some days later he...he killed himself" her face now was wet with tears. "I just. I cant let the past go by, but there is nothing I can do about it. I wish none of this ever happened...but I love Zacky. I love him with all my heart, and he loves me back. I just...I think the fact that I cant let go of the whole story might tear us apart. he of course thinks a lot about it too but..." She stopped again. "I cant loose him too. I'm so scared, and I feel so guilty...I dont know what I would do if I loose him too..." She really was speaking the truth. No matter how threatening the fact was that her undead ex boyfriend obviously was out to kill her, it was more the guilt that was her main 'issue' on the whole thing.
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