"Want another drink, darlin'?"
Helena looked up, squinting through the murky half-light at the bartender. She didn't drink; only water sat in her cup. But she needed something to take her mind off what it had recently been dwelling on. "Do you have coffee or something?" she asked wearily, looking down at her glass and passing it from hand to hand across the slick bar.
He let out a low chuckle. "This ain't no fancy coffee 'ouse, missus. I think you'd be better off headin' up to Nabias." he advised, taking her cup with him as he walked away. She sighed and jumped off the barstool, rubbing at her eyes with the palm of her hand. She needed sleep, but it wouldn't come to her. She couldn't even focus enough to get back into Lucain form-- she was stuck in this disgustingly perfect body.
She stepped onto the dirt road and walked along it, hoping for any kind of distraction. But the memories just kept pushing at her conscious, forcing her to remember what seems to have been so traumatic when she was little... she pinched the bridge of her nose and breathed calmly. You can do this. Focus. Your forms come easy to you.
Instead, she fell back into memories...
She fell back, her pup paws making her stumble, their size going against the rest of her body. She was tinted blue with the coming in of markings, and her teeth were fit for a crocodile-- she was proud of her weird teeth, but not when she was little. She felt self-conscious about them. And of course, there was the boy that always picked on her about it.
"See you later, alligator! Haha!" he would sneer, and she would look away or glare angrily. He would call her Crocodile Teeth or pull at her tails, and warn younger pups in the nursery that if they got too near, she would eat them. She tended to hide away from him, trying not to be seen-- it was the worst time of her life, that denial, that malicious uncaring time. She was too happy to get out of there.
She breathed raggedly and leaned against a street sign, trying to block out the memories. She hated remembering that time more than anything.