Hey guys, I'm sorry I left some of you hanging.
A few of you know the work situation hasn't been good, and while I've been coping with the high staff turnover and trying to teach a pack of newbies how to not get themselves or anyone else bitten, I encountered some things.
It's hard to explain how I came to some of these ideas, but I suppose extreme stress knows no rhyme or reason. I found myself questioning a lot about myself and what I'm doing in my current job. I questioned a lot about my ethics and, in turn, my spirituality. I sought a lot of answers just to raise more questions and overall just went though one hell of a month and a half.
With the recent flooding in my home state of West Virginia (I'm fine, it hit the southern parts of the state and did little damage to my area), my husband was deployed with the Red Cross to help in the relief efforts. This has left me working pretty much two full-time jobs--my day job and playing single parent. It also made me realize just how alone I am, and how much I suck at making friends in RL. So I started up a friendship with an equally awkward vet tech at work and together we have been awkward-ing our way to being actual friends instead of just work acquaintances.
With things beginning to settle, and feeling more confident in myself again, it's time to come back from my unintentional internet detox. No matter my love for all my friends here, it feels so good to have someone just down the road again like I used to have. It feels nice to have little inside jokes again. And feeling less alone at home has helped tremendously. Feeling better about my life, my family, and where I stand has finally made my muse feel back to life...along with all of me.
So here I am, back again, to try and start over for the millionth time it feels like.